Ever heard of regret for not thinking then saying stuff out that could change someone's perspective? Something happened last night, I thought I could give myself a 2nd chance to make up for my wrong doings, but that single reply from him burnt a hole in me. I've been crying for the past few days. My mood has always been black. Easily hot-tempered. And I sulk a lot. My happiness, bubbliness, joyfulness has gone. I thought HE was the one but I seem to know it now that he's not the one. He may fit the discription fully but deep down, he knows I'm not the one eventhough both of us say so. This is the first time I receive a bullet shot through my heart. And he made the decision for me. Stay with him. And I'm your brother. That is all I needed to see. And he made it and I respect it. I've stop loving him from that moment which is 20.37 p.m (Saturday, 10 July 2010). Officially done and over. Eventhough he wants me back as he regretted as he didn't know the truth that I've been hiding, I don't wanna make any more chances and ruining it in my own hands. Imma bitch anyway. He deserve better.
Kelvin, my long lost annoyingly brother. He gives me laughs. He is having a very very good life. Always "ejeking" his maid: his job. He's having a very good love life since he really loves his gf. Except she's super pure. Haha. And he can't wait to go out with her. Sad sod. He's happy and I'm happy that at least this girl ain't gonna break his heart. Which..... has no more feelings. XD.
Heard that most of my long lost friends has a happy life. All those crap they talk about. Really funny. Bring joy back for that milisecond then I've gone emo again. When will I ever sodding realize that I've made a terrible mistake leaving him? Stop loving him? I don't know. I miss him.. Soddingly miss him... Tears has fallen inconsistently and I wanna stop it. How am i suppose to give you the last chance when you, threw it away yourself? You do kno' you love me and I do too. But since.... you suggested.... I won't. I'm just gonna hurt you again, and that would be my fault again. Which I don't want it to happen. So goodbye...
My brother.. :)
Kelvin, my long lost annoyingly brother. He gives me laughs. He is having a very very good life. Always "ejeking" his maid: his job. He's having a very good love life since he really loves his gf. Except she's super pure. Haha. And he can't wait to go out with her. Sad sod. He's happy and I'm happy that at least this girl ain't gonna break his heart. Which..... has no more feelings. XD.
Heard that most of my long lost friends has a happy life. All those crap they talk about. Really funny. Bring joy back for that milisecond then I've gone emo again. When will I ever sodding realize that I've made a terrible mistake leaving him? Stop loving him? I don't know. I miss him.. Soddingly miss him... Tears has fallen inconsistently and I wanna stop it. How am i suppose to give you the last chance when you, threw it away yourself? You do kno' you love me and I do too. But since.... you suggested.... I won't. I'm just gonna hurt you again, and that would be my fault again. Which I don't want it to happen. So goodbye...
My brother.. :)
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