SINGAPORE TRIP XD

I just came back from Singapore and i will upload more pictures next time I post. I can't update much since my dad is standing here staring at the screen. =.= so sorry peeps if you thought you could read more.. blame my dad!

If I Die Young- Sam Tsui

Please listen to If i Die Young by The band Perry. Its amazing. I know it sounds stupid because the title is stupid right? But It's really nice and amazing. :) I know I'm weird..

I'm updating because khai wants me to. I got nothing on my mind actually. PMR results is a week away. 23 of DEC. My heart is beating like mad.. Cuz I mean.. Its scary wei.. But whatever my results is, I'm happy with it. Cause I dont like studying and I studied this time. So I'm proud of myself. Rememeber to praise the LORD people.. :)

I'm going to Singapore tmr.. wee.......

Betryal of A Friendship

Hey people..

Lesson 1# - Don't promise and betray friends at the last moment.

My partner for about a year, has lost confidence in me because we lost at one open tournament. Ok, maybe not one but a few. But I dont remember partnering her for so many open tournaments. Something that hurt me the most is that her reasons to walk over for the game was because she was tired of losing and wanted to win. Well, good for her. Because she got champion for the mix doubles event that she insisted on joining as her partner was a coach. All the coaches has actually asked her to play doubles because they had been seeing us train for almost a whole year for this end-year open tournament. I sprained my ankle a day before our tournament. And eventhough my whole ankle was bruised and I can barely walk, I made myself go for the tournament because I do not want to let her down! I do not want to disappoint her as she has signed up with me.. I just wanted to play my part as a partner eventhough i'm injured badly. We may have lost. But I lost with PRIDE. Because I know I had came and done what I have to do eventhough we had lost. I lose with PRIDE because I had my partner with me during the whole game. Winning a match is not important to me. What most important to me was, having fun, doing our best and most of all, our partnership. When the coaches encourage her to play doubles, she said if i'm forced to play doubles I would drop mis and doubles. I will just play singles.. I do not feel anything because she's big enough to make her own decision whether what game she wants to play. But what hurt the most was those words. Since you dont have any interest in playing doubles because you're scared of losing why the hell you train with me all the time. All those training sessions that made us a strong good pair. All those fun times we shared. Laughter and.. most important, OUR GAME! I'm sad because I just lost a good friend and a partner. She's quiet now. I want to talk to her, but I don't know what I'm suppose to say. I'm not mad neither angry at her. I just want to know.. WHY? WHY would she do such things? I feel the anger but I dont feel the hatred. I forgive and forget. But I do not know how to approach her and talk to her again. I really don't know.. I asked GOD why would you do such things? Why would you create such things.. But if YOU want me to solve this, you got to give me a solution.. I may not partner her anymore but at least I want her as my FRIEND. Not someone that I don't know anymore. Friends are more important than anything.

Today is a lifeless day. No more laughter from my partner. Every one so gloomy. I hate this. Honestly. I want the life back in court. Not just serious faces.. I dont mind not training with her as a pair.. But I want the condition to go back as normal. Not just one person on the left and the other one on the right. It's stupid honestly.

I'm going to Singapore on Friday for maybe a week or more.. I'll miss khai deeply. That's why I'm going training tomorrow. For khai. Before I go off to Singapore. Whatever it is, khai remember, you are in my heart no matter what k? Do not simply think k? I love you. :) And Friday would be our 1 year anniversary. So the pressie that I'm gonna give you.. It may not be pricey or just something plain.. but I hope you like it.. :)

Today khai went for Nicholas's early christmas party.. So I hope he enjoys it there.

I will stop training in mid-july during my SPM year. That would be pretty bad huh? Cause I cant see khai de.. And then I would start my A levels pretty early in January so I would finish my course earlier.. That time.. Khai will have his SPM.. It may be hard for us to meet, but remember.. When there is a will, there is a way. I will do whatever I can in my hands to see you, to be in your arms once again after I leave. I may go overseas, but I'll be back for my holidays and when my course finishes, I'll be with you 24/7. I hope when you're reading this, you're not crying. You are my baby that is filled with emotion. :) Just remember, No matter how hard destiny fight against you, I aint gonna give up. All the promises I made aint empty ones. Especially the ones I made after I got back with you. They are real and staying real.. When you miss me, pick your phone up and sms me. Call even. My number will always remain in your phone. And I'll pick it up to accompany you. I know you're afraid that you will lose me someday but I wont go..

I'M ALL YOURS.

Boredom

I'm back cuz khai asked me to.
Today is a boring day. Wanna know why? I called cath to come my house and at 9.30 she's still sleeping. Thats 1 PIG. Call khai also sleeping. thats 2 PIGS. I guess they are people who goes out in the middle of the night to steal CHICKENS. Yeah.. so i was stucked with 4 pages of piano homework. and i finished it. hah.. cause there was no composing. i left a few blank. dont know what the questions want anyway. So this few days.. Khai has not been sleeping well. Waking me up with sms middle of night and stuff.. Honestly, i'm half sleeping while replying you. And i still wake up early than these 2 PIGS. bleh...

Dont be sad when u read my blog. Its just words. :)
I love you. AND PLEASE.. listen to JOHN MAYER. He's just so good...

Sacrifices

I'm updating finally.. Sacrifices.. I'm gonna sacrifice my whole life-time dream job which is law to business.. you see.. my annoying guy of mine wants me to be near him all the time.. so since i would have to sacrifice things.. all relationship has to anyway, i would change my interest to business.. I sacrificed my super pain cause i twisted my ankle during training till 5 cause i promise i guy that i would. And now the condition is worse. What else?? I dont really remember much.. But all these sacrifices will one day turn up to face me with a question which is "Are all these sacrifices worth it?" Cause these sacrifices aint small ones. They are big ones. Like job changing.. and.. real pain.. and whatsoever la.. so if you wanna sacrifice something, make sure its for someone worth it. I'm doing all these because I have my fate in my hands which is to spend eternity with khai. So i'm pretty sure. Plus, if i have took law i could do business with law. And all this comes under one class- ARTS. So see, when people go to form 4 and they get all messed up with stress.. who cares? You got a BOYFRIEND who you TRUST for LIFE, decide with him. Think and make a decision. If it screws up in the future, u at least can work with another firm without looking TWICE at ur jerk. So choose an application which will serves you with a good job for the rest of your life.. People would say "take a leap of faith".. so do it. Screw it if it fails. No failure no success. Since I always fail in some parts and NEVER get a success.. at least i'm happy with whatever the rest i have. I've sprained my ankle during training but its worth it. I still get to see khai and get a big hug from him! hehe. honestly, if you get a sprained ankle DONT continue playing. It sucks..

i'm blogging here and my sis is actually playing piano and humming to some chinese song.. by jay chou. XD

I miss my guy so much. Seriously. What i promised you i will stick to it. Cause i'm yours forever. No matter how much of pain or sadness or anger i would have to go through, its for you. Yesterday, you were mad then suddenly just left, left me in sadness. My heart nearly broke. Tears were at the corner of my eyes.. But i aint gonna cry in public.. I wasn't expecting you to just burst ur anger at me and suddenly walk away.. Something has been bugging me.. Since when my sweet natured husband turned into an easily angered person with a slight nagging? It surprises me a lot... I've given up everything for you. For everything that you desire. I'm hanging on a thread in your life.. I could have sacrifice more in the future to be with you, but I have to know what else you want me to sacrifice.. You saw the change in me. And I'm staying like that. Cause its for the best and definitely for you. ;)

I love you. I belong to you khai... Sacrificing for you is worth it.. But... STOP ditching me.. :(

Sensational

Okay.. I'm back. Just for a short while.

I guess everyone saw that terrible lightning right? Yeah. It striked my landline. So no internet connection at home. So I'm at the club house for the Internet. So my plan was to terminate land line and get those wireless maxis broadband thing. Or I get a lappie for myself. It all depends. Mum agreed that I should have a lappie of my own anyway. As khai mentioned, I lost at round 2 in inter-mba. I expected to lose anyway. I update longer when I have proper comp and a proper air-conditioner. Love u lots darling.

I LOVE YOU

Hello peeps;
Land connection is down so I'm using my dad's laptop today. Just for blogging.. And for facebook too. Today I had my inter-mba as I've mentioned in a few other post in my blog. And i say it was just superbly amazing. I spent so much time with yi khai even though sometimes got kacau from the coaches to do umpiring but other than that I had an awesome enjoyable day with my darling boy. I lost at first match. You see, the draw is kinda like bad. Cause even if I win the first match the next opponent would be my darling boy which I would lose in any way. So i gave in and let my opponent win. Anyway, he's shots were good. Hated his service anyway. So when my darling boy won, which was 30-18 i think.. i HUGGED him.. cause I was so proud of him. He made my revenge.. hehe.. His opponent was very upset but as I always say, a game has a winner and loser. It doesnt mean you lose means you're a weak player. It just means that the other player is better. Khai lost in his semis.. But c'mon dear, you've went so far to make Taman Megah proud. So keep your head high and make sure you remember that you've done so well. It was a tough match even though you could have done better. But in any other way, do think about this. You've played 3 matches in one day. Plus the semi is 4. A person's body will also feel tired wan right? You woke up so early.. And you were so tired from yesterday. Your body sure need a break from badminton right?? So don't fuss over it. Just practice harder adn I know you'll make it. Even Zhen Yang said you improve so much! SEE.. Everyone can see the diff from last time and now.. Even the Puchong people congratulate you. So be proud of that kay my boy? Other than that nothing much happen.. I enjoyed something.. The alone time with khai though.. Even though there are dogs there.. -.- you la.. tsk tsk.. Khai still remember me about my past which HE promised not to.. So who is going against the promise leh darling? Its YOU. hehe.. But thank you.. For spending so much time with me today. I bet you're tired today. So I really hope you'll rest early tomorrow after you've done blogging. Tomorrow dont need to wake up in the morning to pei me kay? You can pei me after school.. :) I got to go now.. I'll be blogging another day.

I really love you my darling. I love you. Take care darling boy. :) Muax..

You're The Best among You :D

Khai, dont say the image is emo ar.. Which you would tell me anyway..
Training today was ok.. But its tiring.. Especially for darling..
I'm updating blog because he wants me to. So Here am I..
I'll be spending one full day with Khai tmr. Yay..
My dad actually asked me to go Singapore for a tournament. And i know my doubles partner won't go. So i ask khai. He said he may ask his mum. But around 6+ he told me the closing date over liao. Yes.. So i Don't need go Singapore de..
Then I got the MBA holiday camp which I'm forced to go. So I dragged khai along. And the 4th MBA open during Dec... Sometimes I just wish none of my parents would bother about all this except just let me enjoy the sport.. :(
What I promise to you, khai, will be promised. And thanks for that sweet reminder/note. Cause it will help me reminds me of you. :)
Can't wait for tomorrow. Can see khai again.. Oh wells.
I got nothing to post de. I love you.

About my Past that hurt so Much

Hey.. I'm back to blog. Not really actually. Khai made me blog.

( This has nothing to do with khai )
I've been thinking bout my past lately. I read things that I know I shouldn't read cause it will just bring back tears to my eyes. I've been down so lately till I don't remember how to laugh anymore. That's how bad I've reminiscence into my past. Yes, i do admit I do still think about him. But not as a lover. I think of him as a friend. Eternally bonded friend. But when I see things that I don't wanna see, I'll get all sad and emo again. Even khai finds it hard to keep me upright. He is the only one that knows my heart so well that he could just break it long enough and mend it right back within a few seconds. That's what make him different from other guys that I know. He knows how to play with my heart. Khai always get frustrated if I cry over him.

I'm making jelly for our class party. Simple to do yet easy to eat. I'll be doing about 200 of them.. Giving away some to neighbours. And the strawberry flavours will be given to Cath.. And some other flavours together. So hope they'll enjoy it.

I played piano for about an hour today. And after finishing playing, I can feel that my shoulder is very tense up. Like every muscle at my shoulder has been pulled into one big not. It hurts. Haiz.. Hope it will loosen tomorrow. And for the inter-mba on Sunday.

Nothing much happen in school. Played badminton with Adam, Mervin, Ronald and Yen Jin today. It was awesome la. I mean the games were just so funny and amazing. Seriously. Open tournament will be continued on Monday and I'll be in charge of it and hope it will be done then cause Monday is the last day for games.

Time flies this year don't you think so? I can still remember the first day I step into the school compound as a form 3 kid. Now, I'm going to form 4. Bless God for giving me such a good time in WMS. Thank you, Father.

I love you.

1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10 ALL DITCHERS

Hey people;
I think I haven't update for a long time huh? You know why? Cause I've been spamming people's facebook wall. That's why.. A lot of things happened but I dont say out. I keep it to myself, fighting with myself, and spilling them all out to someone. It works but not for long anyway. But darling, don't worry. I'm not keeping anything from you. It's just girl stuff.

I'm so piss today. Seriously. People waste time to umpire their match and yet they come to court so late. After being disqualified give tons of excuses. Ok la. I give chance cause Form 1s. But respect the seniors who are wasting their time for you la.. Dumbbells. Come late to court yet kakacaucau.. Rather just shut up right.. Haiz.. Annoying ones. Plus, him being there.. with her.. Doing stuff. Just makes it worst. Asshole.

DITCHER. = PHANG YI KHAI.
Everyday also ditch me. Yesterday, today, tomorrow.. Haizz...

I miss all my friends. Those who I share secrets with. Sometimes have you ever wonder, without your friends right now, how lonely can you be?? I can feel the loneliness in me creeping out since I've been not too close with my friends anymore. Staring at my phone, waiting for time to pass is just so wasteful... Oh wells. Life is just life right? I'll probably pick up another hobby. Drawing flowers on mahjong paper and colouring it with crayon. Or do puzzles then hang on my wall. So much to do yet no company. That Cath also going Japan de.. She has been "ffk-ing" my jagung pudding day till today. -.-

I'm happy that khai is happy in school. At least he's not emo or sad. That's good enough for me. He always asks me why I always sacrifice so much for him. Like staying up late for him when I'm so tired and stuff. Cause I just have one answer = I love you. Simple. You're my world and all I want to do is make you smile. :) Seeing you happy makes me happy. Even if I'm sad I dont wanna tell you. But you always find out. So.. I have to improve on my acting. hmm.

What else to blog? I'll be spending so much time with darling on Sat & Sun. Actually Sunday la. Cause got inter-mba ma. So since I'm staying till 6.. Got a lot of time with darling lo. Hope that he wont DITCH me since he's job is a DITCHER. Hmm. (dont kill me) I sayang you back on Sat & Sun kay? hehe.

Music tomorrow again.
Online everyday.
Isn't it a waste....

Life is so boring. Seriously.
Open tournament is on Friday. Will be playing Boys Doubles but with a girl partner. And Girl's Singles. That's all for Today.

I love you for.. eternity too.

A Day Out :)

Hey.. I went out with Cath yesterday. And it was awesome. I asked her to teach me how to be "moden" as in how to shop.. Just look at her body. All moden stuff wan. So.. must learn from the sifu.. When tell khai, he says its ok as long as she turns me pretty. -.-
She said she dont like hairbands. When she tried in my house she say it's actually quite nice. The way she thought to wear a hairband made us laughed like mad.. Cuz it was far beyond my thinking!

Then when we were looking at rings, Cath wanted a red ring but tak ada. So she got a ring that i think almost same colour with her nail colour. Then she got me this black flower ring.. Not exactly same with the pic but almost the same. It fit my finger perfectly. I just love her la. She's so a SHOPACHOLIC!

Then we went to Etude to get nail polish. She shopped like mad while I help her open those testers so that she can see the colour. Then she will grab all. Haha. The worst part was... When we were looking at lipgloss and stuff, she asked why was i so clear on those stuff.. then infront of the sales girl she asked.. "You kiss to many boys de is it?".. OMG.. Cath, you're lucky I didnt kill you that time.. Otherwise.. You're so freaking dead..

She paints her nails on my bed.. And she's so scared that will happen. Paint spilled on my bed. So yeah. Her painting has been professional de since she paint my nails for me. Even my nails now are PINK & BLUE. :) LIKE THAT!

I got all my stuff from Diva. If I'm not mistaken lo...

Okay. Today's post. HMM... Went to badminton. Spent some private time with darling then go play badminton with him. Then.. Nothing lo.. He seems a bit down that his rackets.. both broke strings. So he didnt talk.. So *hits you for that*.. Not talking to me.. Not even a smile. Hiah. Then Coach asked me "did a ghost paint ur nails".. See Cath.. Its nice but.. It's a ghost work! Haha.

I miss khai so much.. Can't wait to like spend time with him next Sunday since It's Inter-Mba tournament. And daddy wont be there too. SO bingo! You can't get rid of me darling. Mummy came early to pick him up so he was pissed. Everyone can see that. After he left, Coach Boby was "Mana khai?".. People ciao so long only ask where is he wa..

Nothing else happen today. I love you forever. :)

"MY SO IDIOTIC BIG/LIL SISTER OF MINE"

My SO-OH-AMAZING SISTER.. (not that dogs)

Hey peeps;
Those dogs are like me and Cath. Not cute. But jumpy. I want the left side.. Cath can be the right.. Looks like her anyway..
Today Cath came to my house since dad wanted to cook lunch and not want her to stay home alone. You know, she's such pig. Havnt even got up probably at 9.. TSK TSK... So we had some preserved black beans spaghetti and some drink which she doesnt like. Then we watched Korean drama that she introduced to me.. It was quite nice but all Korean stories has the same story lines anyway.. Then we had ice-cream after that.. Then she went to play the piano.. Sang the song "Innocence" then we went to my room so that she can paint her nails. Either way, she rubbed off de.

Anything you're planning to do something, make a decision or anything, just follow your heart. Ask friends for advice but never listen to them. Cause they do not know what your heart feels and thinks. But Cath, listen to me. Cause.... I always do the wrong things. Haha.. I'm such a loser. I never listen to my heart. I listen to Khai's heart. That's what I do. :)

What a cute puppy.. I just love dogs but it's so ma fan to take care lo... Snowy (Khai's dog) is enough to hear and I would not rare a dog unless Khai leaves me. Hah. Grooming.. Bathing.. Food.. It's almost like a kid.. And Khai is more than a KID..

Okay.. This pic is so like me and Cath. The best sisters ever anyone could ever find. She just reminded of our so lovable past and we laughed like mad. She says I cheat when we play Judo. I so do not. I just puh you off the bed. When of course, there's bed on the floor. Or I push her against the bed on the wall. When we kids, We play masak-masak. But she just asked me a good question. Why we never do all this in the afternoon and only do at night. And you know how dumb can Cath be right? She just asked to play masak-masak today! Too bad Cath, i've already given away. Otherwise I would play with you too.
Haha.. But seriously. She's the most amazing girl I've ever met in this world. Not everyone can stand my ass attitude, my screaming and my lame person. But she can stand me wei.. Praise.. Eh, promise me be my brides-maid ar! I will tell you my secrets all the time.. Bug u 24/7.. Buy you lunch and feed you food.. Make sure you marry the correct guy eventhough you've already have your dream guy.. Any guy treat you wrong, you can say "buh-bye".. And this is the so-amazing girl... Catherine.. CPL.. :D I love you lots Cath!

Darling, dont jealous kay? I love you lots too! Going Sunway with Cath tmr. So i'll blog tmr. Maybe I'll take pics.. Don't know er.. :) Wake up early Cath!! You PIG!

Love is......... DOT DOT DOT

Haha.. (ok thats was lame)

You know what my darling did? He read through all blog posts once again.. He's already on holiday so lucky.. For me, I played handball in the afternoon. Around 2 something. Then ran up to the badminton hall to umpire the match. I asked the form 4s to conduct and finish the games by 2.. And when I reached there, havent even started! I got so pissed I just finished all the games in 20 mins.. Thats why the Form 4s said they need me there.. So stink them. I got handball next week. And next week is the week I got to finalize those marks.. Haizz.. I really hope they'll co-operate and get things done..

I can't wait to see khai on Sat. Remind me to bring those pressies for all your mui kay darl. I need to give so that Tiff will stop bugging me! Hehe.. I wanna see Jack in person not in FB. Later he not nice, I wont let you date him de ah... Must be like khai.. Annoying but nice..

So boring. Doing passport tmr. Then got piano in the evening.. Then friday.. Maybe I'll start doing the pudding.. Then can give the neighbours.. Neh.. That Cath la.. FFK me.. Going out with friends.. so ditch her sister here.. haizz.. sad la..

Badminton.. Neh..
Music.. Not really..

Oh ya.. My badminton teacher invited me to his Diwali open house.. But.. Aiya.. Dont wanna talk about it..

I promise to love you means I will.. Don't worry.. I love you.

Superdy Memories..

Isnt that just cute?? Yes, it does huh. It reminds me of Marley & Me that show.. A dog who eats all kinds of rubbish and at the end die of stomach turned over. Sad but funny story. He loves to eat cake, tears things apart but he's a very special dog. :)

Yesterday didn't online since dad's attitude was a bit down.. You see.. Yesterday was the first ever time I pray to Father for more than 1 hour 20 minutes. Non-stop.. Just praying and praying.. Thanking and thanking for Father's miracles.. I told dad that i want to string my racket at AJ in Puchong. He said ok. I asked him to leave at 1. He said why so early. I say string my racket. At 1.30 also havent move his ass. Then i say can we go string my racket at AJ now? He said I thought we string at Megah.. I got the black face on.. So he drove to Puchong. It was jam as hell.. He got mad.. So I started praying that Father would give my dad peace and not get angry.. No change.. He still got mad.. Then i started screaming in my heart.. Father, I'm begging you. Why aren't you helping me!!! But I did not give up. The trafic cleared.. The traffic lights turned green and cars were moving.. I thank God non-stop for that.. Then as usual.. It was jam again.. Dad got angry again.. So i prayed and prayed again.. Prayed that the cars move and traffic light just turn green and long enough for us to go through. Miracle came.. Everything went fine from my prayers. Then it started to get jam again.. It started to rain also.. I prayed hard and hard.. I know we're gonna reach soon so I prayed harder.. My dad said I wont make it on time.. But i didn't give up. I told Father he has 20 minutes to do his miracle.. 20 min is a long time for Father.. And it did.. I reach MBA 15 mins before 3.. I thank God for those miracles he performed for me.. My dad's mood got better.. start to laugh and stuff.. SO PRAISE GOD!!!!

As usual.. I played badminton today.. only got 5 people.. so constantly rotate.. Tiring wei.. But it was fun..

I miss khai.. And thanks Cath for reminding our past.. We were so awesome.. Awesome duo... :) I love you so much Cath.. (sounds wrong but whatever)..

I love you too khai,, Don't be jealous o.. Anyway, training with khai is awesome.. Can tease him.. Haha.. :) See you in MBA..

Celebs....

Hey peeps:
Its been a long time since I ever updated. Too lazy to type la. If ask me cerita to you, I can talk for 24 hours. Anyway, Thanks to my sis, Cath to finally make me listen to Avril once again. Now I'm in love with her. But what she like not I like de.. Hehe... She like punk i like slow.. So not in common! Haha.. And she wants me to go church with her.. :) SHE LURVE ME.. ( i hope)...

What else.. I tried to end it with khai today. But stink him for saying all those stuff till I cried.. Haiz.. Then... Lazy say.. Buy me lunch or dinner and I'll tell you everything.

I got badminton today. This Malay teacher very open wan. Ask me whether Org Melayu sama dgn Org Cina or not.. She see so many student in our school coupling.. Then she ask whether some of them last after school.. I said depends. If they want they can. But most of the time, they break. Then she tell her love experience to us. My friends and I were laughing cause we were like making fun and joking with her.. So dumb la we all.. Then we started teasing madam.. Cause she tell all her past to us.. Especially me.. Oh wells... I'm so gonna talk to her next time..

Nothing to update also. So sien... :0 School's ending. o.O
I'll miss all my friends...
and canteen food.. (renovating it to be a 5star canteen)
And all those lame jokes from John and Zach and Emmanuel...
Haiz.. Too many names that had touched me heart this whole year...

I love you. :)
I'm sleepy... wanna sleep...

A New Beginning of.......

Lazy put picture la.. haiz...
All those loved ones of mine all never update blog.. This people somemore ask me update when sendiri don't update. So ah... I shouldn't be updating right?? *winks winks*
Nothing much happened lo.. Came back from Penang.. Ate a lot there... OOOH... And for the first time i RODE a PUBLIC BUS! RM 2 then i rode a FREE HOP ON BUS! It was so cool.. But then i sat near the engine.. so its jacuzzi without water.. After getting down.. my BUTT fully massaged de.. Then we continued over journey walking under the hot sun....
I'll update more later... So bored.. And school was so boring...

Loving You more and less... :D

Hey peeps;
Today is good. Right??? I hope so. I don't know also. Except for someone lu.. Dont wanna talk about it anyway..

Today I went to Mines. Watched a movie with my cousin. Bought a new lime green colour watch. Then ate Subway. Then McD. I'm growing fat. Whatever. I live to eat anyway. :D

Nothing much happened today. Woke up at 6 to send khai off to school. Then wait for him after school to teman him sms.. What else?? I cooked prawns tonight. I didn't eat a lot of dinner as I was full.. :)

I love you.

Will be going to Penang tmr. So I hope I'll enjoy and stop thinking bout the Scouts camp. HAIZZZ... I miss khai so much.. And I wanna get something for khai and cath from there.. I hope.. :) T-shirt for khai if can.. how bout Cath? Tell me what you want! Otherwise I get you a DRESS + SKIRT. That time.. you'll die de lo.. :D hor???

Take care people. Khai you better miss me!

Picture Perfect

Hey peeps;
Yesterday was a sucky day. Wedding was so noisy and my dad was drunk and he got pissed for no reason. So since my house got guests around, my mum say be "kambing korban" and just say sorry. So I did. And i got pawn. Whatever. And I cried till 2+??? But stink me for sending the nice message to darling at 1+ ler.. He saw and POOF.... He asked me why I wasn't asleep since I was suppose to sleep with him together.. So finally he got me convinced to sleep with him.. And surprisingly I did..

So when this morning I got up, my eyes were super swollen.. Everyone saw the double lid.. Due to crying... And my cousin made me spill everything.. I was so tired so I slept in the car when I was on the way to Mid-valley... Then I was still so groggy I went to Starbucks to get a coffee caramel.. And a choc banana muffin.. I was feeling better by the afternoon.. Then I fell asleep again on the way back..

I was smsing darling then he went to training so I just went shop with my mum.. Went and eat lunch at food court.. Then continued shopping lo.. But I was just chatting all the way with my cousin.. Was telling him bout darling and me.. So he listened and said I should know darling's bad side first. But darling.. I seen your dark side on my BIRTHDAY! haha.. so ok lu.. But i guess i haven't seen most of darling's side hor? :)

Then I went for badminton in the afternoon since that young boy wants me to go so badly. So i went lo. And i got a swollen wrist. Sad. Even darling injured his leg yesterday. Bad darling. Make ur gf worried and sad. :( try to make you happy with something still got disappointed face.. Make me feel so not nice and heart-broken. :( ALL YOUR FAULT, darling.

Just now I went out for dinner. For 13 person, 10 dishes and the price was only RM260. So my dad said I should do my wedding there and I said no problem since the food is good. So darling... Cheap place with good FOOD.... :D

I love you darling. :) Forever and always. Remember what i said in the message ya..
And i enjoyed yesterday. A lot. Thank you darling.

Music makes my Life Perfect

Hey peeps;
I went out today to fetch my cousin brother.. He came back from Singapore for tmr's cousin's wedding.. I bought a pair of new white high heel shoes. Since it was on discount.. Then i went shopping for a formal dinner bag but nothing was nice so i walked away.. While i was walking I was staring at my phone and my watch.. waiting for the time to pass so I can sms my baby after he finishes his school.. While I was walking back to the original place, GUESS who i SAW? I saw baby! I was shocked but i'm so happy.. I had to look away so that I won't do anything to him.. I recognize Sam first then I was like eh... So familiar one.. Then suddenly i saw someone.. walking like a bunny.. half walking half jumping... was baby.. I shouted his name and he halted and look at me.. Then we chatted... Then he introduced to me who was with him.. I was embarass but Sam blushed! Haha.. because of seeing me finally.. oh wells.. What to do.. But it was faith.. really... Got a chance to meet baby leh.. too bad baby didnt have his phone.. otherwise i could have smsed him all the way..

Then I went to C.Junior... Saw these 3 samseng guys there.. You know yourself you not lengzai de la.. still want to act cool wa... haizz... and were playing cards there.. i bet they had been there for quite some time.. but... my mum was practically staring at them.. asking me whether their hairstyles were nice.. i ignored her and ate frnech fries.. :)

I'm gonna go for a church wedding ceremony tmr morning at 9... Imagine getting up at 6.30.. bathe.. wear formal dress.. put on earrings.. blowdry my hair... wear nice high heels in the early morning! So NOT me!!!!! But... relative ma... then I would rush to MBA to see baby then rush back home to bathe and do the same routine and rush back to PJ Hilton for the wedding dinner.. Tomorrow would be the most tiring day for me... But baby, I will still pei you kay? You're the first priority in my life..

It's time to go since baby offline de.. i love you lots. :)
God bless everyone kay?

Only God can Satisfy

THINKING BOUT THE PAST.......

Hey people;
I've finally finished my form 4 entrance exam. And it was hard. And I feel so good and partly empty. Why are we restless? Why are we constantly searching for lasting peace and contentment, and yet never fully satisfied? "My friends all say I have everything anyone could ever want," one man wrote me recently, "but down inisde I'm empty and restless. What's wrong with me?" Countless people could echo his cry, if they were honest.
The Bible says this happens to us fir a very good reason: We are imcomplete without God. If we leave Him out of out lives, we have an empty place in our souls, a yearning deep inside us that only God can satisfy. No matter how hard we try, if we ignore God that hollow place stays with us, and our search for lasting peace and happiness will be futile.
Centuries ago St.Augustine wrote, "You have made us for Yourself, O God, and our hearts are restless until they find their rest in You." Only God can satisfy the deepest longings of your heart.

I would close this teaching in a bible verse.
You are complete in Him,
who is the head of all principality and power.

Sometimes I wonder to myself, who am i gonna hold on to when all my close ones leaves me. Think bout it. I was close to H.minn, then our friendship ended. I was close to Ashley and now she's leaving school. I was good with my piano teacher, and she left cause she was getting married. AH. whatever it is right, why are all the people who I just got close to would leave me when I thought I could stand with them forever. But I guess it's God's plan. So I'll leave it to him. :)

Baby, I'm sorry if I've been cold to you. It was just stressed and I was tired. I know you very good wan.. Don't angry kay? But thanks for telling me. At least I know I didn't treat you very nice. I love you kay? See you this saturday. At least you'll get a chance to see me in a formal dress! Haha.. Lucky you.. :)

Being Faithful To My Father

Hello peeps;
Entrance exam for today was so hard till evryone gave up.. you can volunteer to do and you'll too, walk out of the hall. Science was part of form 4's Chemistry, Physics and a bit of Bio. Maths was... ADD MATHS! BM... was BM format! And in 1 hr 30 mins... haizz.. at least I slept through half of the paper.. hehe.. Exams are just so boring.. seriously..

I wanna share on The Right Question

- Life isn't always fair, nor is it always the way we wish it were. Disappointments, tragedies, griefs, failures, disablities, illness, injuries, rejections, suffering, grief - these will come our way, sometimes at the most unexpected times or in the most unexpected ways.
- When they do, it's natural to ask, "Why,Lord? Why did You let this happen to me?" It's not wrong to ask this; God may even answer our cry ( or at least give us a hint ), because He has lessons to teach us through this experience.
- But the most important question we should ask when life turns against us isnt "Why?", but "What?" "What do You want me to do, Lord? How should I react to this situation? What respons do You want me to make?

If You abide in Me,

and My words abide in you,
you will ask what you desire, and it
shall be done for you.

So remember, when you're in crisis or anything, make sure look up and pray and ask for his guide. Our Father is the only person who can perform MIRACLES. And i do believe, whatever that has happened to me. was his perfect timing. Think and do.

I love you.

Motivational Day of Mine

I WANNA SERVE YOU.....



today. Wanted to go out with sis wan.. but she already got date.. with Chu Wen..
So i go out with dad..
To buy storybooks...
And eat lunch at my favourite "Uncle Snack" stall...
WED & THURS is Form 4 entrance exam..
I don't care la.. screw it... waste of time..
I spent all dat watching "Rice Family" and a bit of anime "Winter Sonata" and a bit of motivational slideshows.. Just for the music actually...
It just taunts my eyes for tears..
If got time.. please see...

"SPARROW" in YOUTUBE. A old father and his son. Touching.

hmm... boring day actually... nothing to do also...
see.. that's the disadvantage of finishing PMR and lazing around..
I needa get a life man..
And Cath, you owe me a day to do Jagung pudding for neighbours ah!..
What else...
My cousin's wedding this Saturday! So my relatives will be down by Thursday...
Oh wells... I got nothing much to say de...
Ashley will be leaving school next year..

Stink her for ditching in Arts alone..
And I just love studying with her.. and now she's gone..
SLEY!

I love you. :))

Beautiful Soul

AMAZING......

Hey, finally the dreaded date has finally arrived. PMR is over. But i got so much to do till I don't even feel the fun. I got 3 stuff to organize, thousands of letters to type.... ah... God just give me the strength to go through all this.. It's gonna drain all my strength from me.. Nothing has happened lately.. Got no mood to post.. bye..
I love you.

Waiting All My Life :)

Hey people.
Pmr is in 1 more day. Then it's over.
I got nothing much to post. Since i'm hungry now. Hehe.
Things happen. Things return back to normal. I call it confusion.
I call it life. I call it lessons. N i call it memories.
Things change so sudden till i also dont know what I'm doing.
I;m bored. But I need to study.
Dear going out for dinner tonight.. leaving me alone.. haizz...
Then cath is complaining cuz she has to wear a dress for a wedding..
Be more feminine gurl!
Haha...

I love you. See you guys after PMR.
God, i feel so itchy to play badminton. Damn. Time to lose weight man...

Cherish The Love :)

Hey peeps.
I got nothing much to update about la. Everything has been settled. He let me scold him for a while. Maybe a long time I don't know la. But well, he just stayed quiet so i can get done with him. Hehe. He knows when to shut and when to open his mouth. Lee Chong Wei finally beat LINDAN. YEAH!!!! It's time for him to gain back his confidence to win Lindan..

Anyway, i love you. So don't always think i'm thinking negative kay?
Hugs and kisses to you.