Accepting Criticism

I know I'm stupid. I know I'm dumb. But I'm not lazy. I study your bloody subject for more than a week. I may not have done well, but do you have to comment such harsh words? You may not know the feeling, but it stinks! Why me? Why don't comment other failures but me? Why don't pick on others? Why can't you admit you're one sided. You like students who do well. I'm sorry I'm not one of them! You can say whatever you want.... But not those! I give up. I'm tired of debating with you. Say whatever you want. I may have improved. But you'll never see.. Cause you hate me! I seriously do not understand. Am I that stupid to you? Why are you the only one treating me this way? I don't hate you. I'm just like that. I'll remember your sentence for the rest of my life. You may have made me lost my dignity as a student, but I HAVE LOST ALL MY RESPECT TOWARDS YOU! You do not deserve my respect as you do NOT RESPECT ME! I've done my best yet you made me sound like trash. I may not care but do you know every single act in class? Those students who had cheated during it? I've stayed shut cause I don't wanna get them busted, but YOU! YOU will NEVER know how much of hardships I'm going through. I may respect your teachings but the way you conduct the class is BERAT SEBELAH! Don't think I do not know you're racists! Don't think I don't know anything about YOU! I may have failed all your expectations, rather than guiding me along, you made me sound like a retarded kid! I know my limits and I know my place. Trying to make fun of me won't do any good! Wanna be so stingy, go ahead! I may greet you as it's the rules. But i'll never treat you as a friend in my life. I just got to stand you for 4 more months and please. Get out of my life. I seriously dont like you.....

Golden Oppurtinities Opened

Hey people;
I dont even think anyone's is even reading my blog. Anyway, training today was good. Except baby wasn't that happy lo. But other than that, I do believe we made a good game and a fair pair. Right? Since my baby wasn't that that happy, i gave him a small peck. See? Ur gf so nice. And it cheered him up. Korea wins! CHINA is going down down down. Korea deserve it la. China so LC..... Haha. I love you.

Hearts Takes Place

Hey people;
I'm blogging cause of xin yi. My new coolest sis ever. Neh. Anyway, today experience was great right? Except he's a jerk. Seriously la. You want guys i intro to you rather than meeting all this people who has no heart also. I don't even know who I'm siding. Oh wells..... I have been studying. Can you believe it? Studying wei... Like 5 hours..... I can't believe I did. But well.. For the sake of PMR. And my darling is weak. WEAK. Cause i don't know why. And i feel like hugging him and tell him be strong. And put him to sleep and tell him, wake up tmr and give me a wide smile. Wake up tmr, and tell me, " I'm strong, my wife ". But well, I'm not living with him right? But I know he is still gonna be strong. Things happened and passed. Oh yes. Tears were shed like....... On when ar?? I don't remember. But I know we are back as one again. I do love him. And it's so hard being away from him. I just miss him so badly. Even my sis was screaming at all my smses with her, telling her to get back with my darl. And yes. We did. And back to normal. But I think stronger la.. Argh.. My tummy aches now. So random. Exams in 3 weeks time. Then i got prefects camp. Then........ I'm going to Penang. But I will find a day to go out with darl. Can we bring xy along too? I promise to go shopping with her. And I'm tagging you along. Please???????????? Badminton today was alright.. I just realised that Jun Wei will be leaving for San Fransisco mid-August. I'm gonna miss him badly. No more singles match. But Darryl is back. So got another sparring partner. I miss darl so much... I feel like hugging him.. Pressing my lips against his and tell him I love you. And my bridesmaid is xin yi! Haha.. Because she made me promise that I would have to love khai forever. So what a wonderful sister I have. Darl asked me whether we had become stronger, and it is definitely a yes. I just realised how deep our love is. Thank you for giving me a second chance. Thank you for shredding tears for me. With me. Thank you for always understanding. Except for the "I will LIKE another girl ".... Kick your ass la baby.. So mean for that... Haizzzzz...... I'm skipping a badminton tournament to stay at home to study.

I love you....

How To Explain?????

I don't know how to explain.... I'm so confuse... I'm so lost... It hurts.... It twists my heart. When someone say they may like another girl, why can't they just admit they may fall for them and continue to love them? Why wanna go one big round and tell them lies that may just end up fake at the end. Why can't they be more sensible rather than hurting that person more and more? I don't know how to explain my feelings. I just wanna bury my head deep into my books and ignore him. He said he can't stand... Stand what?? You're the person who said you may LIKE another girl while waiting. Why waste your fucking time waiting while you're planning to like another person? I rather move on and go for someone who would wait for me without LIKING another person. Do you know it is so hard to not think about you? Do you know how stupidly painful it is to think your arms around another girl's body? Your lips against another girl's lips? And all I get is a name. Please. I'm tired and fed up. So please, don't wait for me. I had move on. I've choosen my path to move away and go on. I promise, I will never go back to you. Cause the last thing I wanna hear is I will LIKE another girl while WAITING for you and I only LOVE you. What the hell is that? Get a grip. I wanted to tell you, i love you. I wanted to tell you, can we get back together. I wanted to tell you, let's continue while loving each other. But you know what, I change my thinking. I seriously change it. I don't care anymore! I'm not gonna go back to you while your heart is with someone else! You may say it is in the future, but time flies! And I don't wanna go through the exact phase of my life that I had left behind repeating all over again! I feel sick of getting loved. I'm tired. Its over. And stop blaming everything on her. It's not her fault. Everyone has diff opinions. And I do not know who to believe anymore. I am not gonna believe any single person in your school. Cause everyone is backstabing each other. You guys do not care about your friends around you. You guys are so self-minded that a stranger talking will be misunderstood because of everyone's lies!