Confession

Ok. What type of Christmas is today? I mean my BFF going through a bad time when is the best time of the year is here. C'mon, everyone has sense to keep those sad things away from Christmas right.. Maybe not. Anyway, I hope she has the strength to keep going on. Cause i have faith in her.

THE LEGEND OF THE DOGWOOD

Four petals show us
the cross of Christ.
The centre of blossom;
the crown of thorns.
Brown specks on
each edge show the
stain of His blood,
but these are not
symbols forlorn.
For in this meek
tree these symbols
are shown
To us remind of
victory won-
This triumph over
death.
Eternal life given.
Through the sacrifice
of God's dear Son.

Okay. Today is a good day as another thng that had been bothering me since 2008 has been cleared after a few messages. It is very personal but now its settled, my intention is to focuse on you-know-who. It took a lot of courage, patience and sadness, maybe even devotion, to let him go. Sometimes I wonder, why are there so many personal problems that we have to face when we know that its too personal to share and too hurtful to face. But at the same moment, i know that they care. I'm feeling so emo. Him gone- part of me is happy and part of me, is it really too good to be true? I dont know. YK, don't misunderstand. You're mine and will be mine. So do not worry or simply think cause it's my past which I dont want you to be involve. For people who like to listen to music, with a catchy tune, meaningful lyrics, peace & quiet melody, I'll like to recommend Jheena Lodwick. Soft and loving voice. Do check her out. She has around 3 albums if i'm not mistaken.

~When you look up at the starlit sky, know that you are not alone. In your loss, you have gained a guiding light, an angel by your side..... You may feel lonely and hurt as this moment overwhelms you. You have friends and family to help you through this but you have someone even greater watching over you now. In the beauty of the night a soul twinkles just for you. In the calmness of a passing breeze peace floats by to ease your heart. You should never feel lonely because you are not alone. ~

Okay. Tomorrow is Saturday and which is really good as I get to see YK. And YK, if you're reading this, I'm going to attend a wedding dinner tomorrow night. So if there's anything, just sms me kay. And I've no idea where you fly to de.. And i miss you. See? I told you your trip would not be that boring. You go out almost the whole day with things to do. And we chat some stuff that test your level of readiness huh? And YK, you did not cheer me up when i was EMO! hehe. So you owe me one kay? Rest early. Nights.