Shih-Tzu Dogs

Hello;

I got this motivation to write this blog from someone who rare Shih-Tzu dog. Cute right? I got nothing much to post today. Except look through the internet for this loving dogs. I love dogs but I'm scared of them. And dear's dog is Snowy. But i know she's one loving puppy. Hehe. With an extraordinary character. Right dear? I love you. Bye. =)

Going to ignore

Look. If someone is so annoying and has no life might as well just go and get a life please. Whatever your motive is, it is not going to work. You are just getting yourself in trouble and you'll regret what you are doing. Are you sure you want to commit such brainless act? Oh so your eyes hurt when you see right? WOW! I'm surprise. Lifeless people has no sense of humour and EDUCATION! Talking dirty doesn't change my life or anyone's life. What is our real motive anyway? Breaking people's life apart or trying to crack me up with laughter? Ooh.. I'm not scared of you kay. What can you do anyway? So it seems you know me, tell me what do you know bout me? I don't give a damn who are you. But i know betraying people and using them is the worst thinking anyone can think of? OOH. Wanna make my chatbox dirty huh? Stupid! You think i care what you write and I'll put it in my heart? NOPE. Sorry. Get a bloody life and move on kay. And for your information, I'm not doing anything guilty with my guy kay. You think everyone is like you ar? But I wanna praise you something, YOU OWNSELF KNOW THAT YOU'RE A LIFELESS BUGGER! Congratulations. I'm very proud of you that YOU admit that you're a lifeless fella. And your friend too. What can you do? Harm me? Kill me? Murder me? Come. I invite you to murder me. If you have guts, if you're a gentleman, tell me who are you. And we'll settle it in no time. If you have no guts, means you're a chicken. No guts. Too bad. People like you..... Where got life right? Only got nothing to do, drop some no respect comments. But do you know that it does not affect me anything by your words? It just reflects on you back. By how you don't respect a girl. Oh. you may say I'm cheap right? No need respect right? Everyone needs respect. Even YOU. If you have dignity of yourself, you still want disturb me, write bad comments bout me ar? I'M SORRY. Do you have a gf? Oh maybe you just couple, sleep with her, then dump her. Or maybe better, she leaves you. So shut the hell up kay. You are a piece of crap. Say whatever you want. Do whatever you want. I dont care. What i have most and I appreciate is that I have my guy who trust me and continue to have faith in me. So beat that loser..

My love for you is strong

There is only one happiness in life;
to love and be loved.
Love is strong yet delicate;
It can be broken,
To truly love is to understand this,
To be in love is to respect this.
Love is magical, wondrous and strange,
Love is unselfish,
Understanding and kind,
For it sees with its heart;
And not with its mind.
Love can't be bought,
It's priceless and free,
It's life's sweet mystery!

Went to mid-valley today. Was brought there because I needed new clothes. But I didn't have the mood to shop. So instead i was looking at teddy bears and t-shirts for dear. I don't think I can get a Valentine's present in time so he has to go shopping with me on my birthday. He choose his present and I'm paying for it. Which he argued with me. Too bad dear. You're not gonna get away with that. So just let me have my way on my birthday. And the donkey in my blog is Cath. She wanted to be named so there, I've named you the sexy butt donkey. XD. Told you, you'll regret. Be proud of your huge butt! And dear, yup. Love can't be describe and have to be felt. And i do feel it as much as you feel it. And you felt the fear that made cold sweats pour out right? Don't worry. What I promised you will always stay as a promise.
I love you. Its raining. Nights. =)

Life & Reality

This is a serious post as this involves reality and strenght. We may face challenges and changes abruptly, without us even noticing it happened. But sometimes we may have to face difficulties in a sudden blow. And this is call LIFE. Everyone has to go through so many stages of life before becoming a successful person. Having a feeling of disappearance, ignored, uncared is nothing. Losing someone is hurtful, painful, unbearable but isn't that what made us into a person we are meant to be? It may be hard to face changes, but sometimes it's good to have changes around us. It would mould us into a better character, a better soul. We may change physically, mentally, attitude, but we're still the same person deep down our hearts. " When a door closes, another door opens". Keep that in mind. We may feel our friends are slipping away from us, leaving us alone, abandoned and we feel lifeless. Feel like leaving this life, escaping this stupid world right? No point. Be strong and face it. Yup. It stinks and it sucks. But hello, everyone on this planet has a mission to accomplish. Either be a successful person or just be a useless consumer. You may think why should we give credit to the rubbish collectors who collects our rubbish, but if no one is doing that job, where do you think our rubbish will go? So do give credit to those people who we think they are of no use. Okay. Reality. Reality is real life. We can dream and make wishes. Everyone does that right? Otherwise what are we wishing for before we blow the candle of the cake on our birthday? Or the long list of things we want from Santa? But not everything comes in a perfect form or how we want it. It comes in different ways and different forms in different timing. That's God's timing. I know how it feels when one moment you feel really superdy-duper close to someone and the next moment, POOF! the special moment is gone. Cause everyone comes and go. So don't fuss over a small little problem and then you realize you're actually destroying yourself. Without realizing. That is where mentally disorder people comes in. They make it seem so big when it is so small. Cause we never think of other ways to solve it. We may think of crying, what? Don't tell me you're gonna cry every 30 seconds... And how much of tears can your eyes take? Your eyes will be 100% swollen by the time you finish crying and the next thing you know, you're in the hospital cause you're dehydrated. And you have to go on the drip. Do you really want to suffer this pain? Why want to put yourself in pain when you know that you can count on friends, family, and even strangers. Please don't ever tell me you wanna keep everything stuffed up in your mind and then one day, you feel bloated and then you have a nervous breakdown and everything comes out in one big blob. So relax. Don't need to feel so pressured up. Take it slowly. One at a time. You can even talk to a counselor. They do know how to shut their mouths kay. So trust the people around you. Don't keep yourself away from the truth, reality or the world that is going round. Mix in, stay in touch, and give them your daily dose of crap. What I am actually typing here may count as something crappy. But it's the truth. So hang on people. Especially donkey. YOU! Never ever give up. You got Alex... He is loving you unconditionally. With too much of love actually. *shivers*.. YK, where you disappeared to anyway? Without saying "BYE" to me.. *not smiling anymore*.... Joking kay. Later don't know where you start thinking de. Nights guys. =)

Confession

Ok. What type of Christmas is today? I mean my BFF going through a bad time when is the best time of the year is here. C'mon, everyone has sense to keep those sad things away from Christmas right.. Maybe not. Anyway, I hope she has the strength to keep going on. Cause i have faith in her.

THE LEGEND OF THE DOGWOOD

Four petals show us
the cross of Christ.
The centre of blossom;
the crown of thorns.
Brown specks on
each edge show the
stain of His blood,
but these are not
symbols forlorn.
For in this meek
tree these symbols
are shown
To us remind of
victory won-
This triumph over
death.
Eternal life given.
Through the sacrifice
of God's dear Son.

Okay. Today is a good day as another thng that had been bothering me since 2008 has been cleared after a few messages. It is very personal but now its settled, my intention is to focuse on you-know-who. It took a lot of courage, patience and sadness, maybe even devotion, to let him go. Sometimes I wonder, why are there so many personal problems that we have to face when we know that its too personal to share and too hurtful to face. But at the same moment, i know that they care. I'm feeling so emo. Him gone- part of me is happy and part of me, is it really too good to be true? I dont know. YK, don't misunderstand. You're mine and will be mine. So do not worry or simply think cause it's my past which I dont want you to be involve. For people who like to listen to music, with a catchy tune, meaningful lyrics, peace & quiet melody, I'll like to recommend Jheena Lodwick. Soft and loving voice. Do check her out. She has around 3 albums if i'm not mistaken.

~When you look up at the starlit sky, know that you are not alone. In your loss, you have gained a guiding light, an angel by your side..... You may feel lonely and hurt as this moment overwhelms you. You have friends and family to help you through this but you have someone even greater watching over you now. In the beauty of the night a soul twinkles just for you. In the calmness of a passing breeze peace floats by to ease your heart. You should never feel lonely because you are not alone. ~

Okay. Tomorrow is Saturday and which is really good as I get to see YK. And YK, if you're reading this, I'm going to attend a wedding dinner tomorrow night. So if there's anything, just sms me kay. And I've no idea where you fly to de.. And i miss you. See? I told you your trip would not be that boring. You go out almost the whole day with things to do. And we chat some stuff that test your level of readiness huh? And YK, you did not cheer me up when i was EMO! hehe. So you owe me one kay? Rest early. Nights.

Weirdness and Changes

Okay. I'm back from Singapore and I'm posting. I'll post about the trip another day. With a lot of pics. Anyway, why are people so dumb? Or what i can say is, Cant you MYOB?? What are you? Paparazi- Go listen to Lady Gaga then. Sometimes its so annoying to see people like you guys who has no sense of humour. Get a life please. I'll appreciate it. And i may even thank you. =)

FOOTPRINTS

One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach
with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed
scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed
two sets of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me
and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life
shot before me I looked back
at the footprints in the sand.
There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
and saddest times of my life.
This always bothers me
and i questioned
the Lord about my dilemma.
"Lord, You told me
when i decide to follow You,
You would walk and talk
with me all the way.
But I'm aware that during
the most troublesome times of my life
there is only one set of footprints.
I just dont understand why,
when I needed You most, You leave me"
He whispered, " My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you,
never, ever, during your
trials and testings.
When you saw only one pair of footprints
it was then that I carried you.

~ There are some roads in life that we must travel alone, even though we may be surrounded by people whom we love..... Some things in life, such as what you're feeling now, can't be felt by anyone but you. But just remember you are not alone at all, everyone who loves you is walking with you in spirit, and will be there with you. =)

I'm sorry that i made you worried on that day. My bad. But it was a fun trip to Singapore. Bought a lot of presents for M girls. And today is Christmas Eve. Haha. Who's gonna eat turkey tomorrow??????? Rather eat duck than turkey. And Ham.... Okie. Anyway, 2 more days left till meeting time. He's like counting down for New Year 2010. =) Singapore food is o-kay. But people there are really obedient and friendly. They smile a lot. But they walk super fast. Saw a lot of stuff I shouldn't see. YK, you agree it was disgusting right? =) TOP SECRET! haha. But the prices there are high though. Multiples $2.5 there. The hotel was awesome and i hate bubble lifts. And Singapore is very convenient as every where is inter-linked to MRT and pathways. So it's really an enjoyable trip. Except i wasted RM100 of credit in 2 days. Sorry. YK, enjoy your trip in Ipoh. I know is boring, but at least you're away from the office right? And let things come and go easily. Don't like someone, try to like that person. You won't regret. This is asking. Not an order. But i know you'll try. I have faith in you cause I believe in you. Plus, Sam is your friend right? So it's a big family. And a happy one too. So remember what I've taught you? Joy is the main thing in our lifes. Merry Christmas!!

Happy Day

Today is a happy day for me. Cause i got to meet someone. And it's someone special and important in my life, that is YK. We have training every Saturday and that's the only time we can meet. Today rained heavily so YC came late. YK lost to my dad but for his privacy i ain't gonna say the points. We got to do what we wanted to do. And that's confidential. =)

Training was tough. I've no idea how YK can run all those laps and still feel fine. I envy you. But he got pumped out during the lobbing session. Hehe. You got the wrong partner. But i promise you, you're improving faster than usual. By no time, I bet you can win me. Plus, you got extra training now. So we played match after training. Andrew & Victor vs Me & YC. They lost. Then its YK & Victor vs Me & YC. That we won. But you guys were great. YK.. Hmm. You nearly smash my face. But I forgive you. Cause you're everything to me. So do not worry. But training was fun right? And you can see how me & YC debate. She always win. But it's always nice to debate with her. Even during match, she makes me laugh. Now i know why YK used to like her. Cheerful little girl. Can't believe she kicked me 2 times. Oh ya, Coach Pei Pei was talking to me in 3 different languages cause my arm hurts. And YC called me "Lao Tai Po"........

It's in my vain and soul to be like that. And it is my destiny to do it for you.

I thought you were copying this phrase but when I found out it is from your inner soul, I'm very touched by your words. So thank you for these lovely words. I'll remember it. I'm slacking at home doing nothing. Going to Singapore tomorrow. So I'll post when I come back. YK, don't over-stress yourself during tomorrow's training. A promise is a promise kay. And enjoy your trip to Ipoh. I'll get something for you in Singapore kay. And don't simply eat stuff. Hehe. Remember what happened that day?? Teasing you. I'm such a devil. Nights.

A Brand New Start

Thanks to someone very dearly to me who created this blog for me. So I owe you one. And i seriously appreciated everything you did for me. Well, something happened yesterday. I told the truth and things totally changed. It became better and i guess we started. Yup. He said those things were true. After so much of trouble and so much of time wastage, we both admitted what had been kept deep down of our soul. So its really a brand new start. There are quite a few

similarities between us. So I hope everything will go on as normal.