Hey guys. Well, yesterday wasn't the day I really wanna talk about neither forever. But my blog, there are only 2 person who constantly reads my post. And I wanna tell the person who always read it. And I think between both of you, one of you know who you are.
You may be covering your real personality and not showing your real-self. Things may go wrong when you act yourself. I've been in that position. Someone birthday and I acted like a bitch. And I got my punishment. But isn't that what you're suppose to do? Be who you are and not cover. I tried pretending someone I am not, and it was HELL. I hated it. Cause I'm acting and the person knowing you may like you for someone you are not you. And I may not know the reason why and whatsoever, but for 5 months and more? Those times? And all you got to say now is " I just changed.. For the better "... " To get things over and past "... I don't know you. Thats why I was having a hard time knowing you, getting into your character. I judge people by rumours and its cover. And when I know them, i change my perspective of them. And thats when I bond the friendship with everyone. But you never tried, or maybe you did but I never notice. Or maybe I'm just to busy with my own life to even care about you. I don't know. Cause u were acting. And I can act too. I am hot-headed. Today is not the first day you know me. But to me, every day is a new day meeting with a new character which I am so tired of trying to figure which is which. She is there for you. I won't. Cause I don't know you. I dont have the patience to figure it out. And I prefer being friends. Thats all. When I allow you to be bonded with me, closer, means i known you. But you, are like a stranger. Thats all.
Edward.. told me that I am rare yet I am not. I am normal yet different. The poem explains everything.
Once there was a boy called Edward. He had a friend called Mei yeen. One day, he got bored so he made up a poem about mei yeen.
A girl like you is not a rare girl.
Nor are you a common everyday female.
A girl like you is a true friend.
One who will always be there to help and understand.
A girl like you does not show her true feelings openly.
Instead, covers your emotion with a tough look.
A girl like you is not popular.
But instead, forms a strong bonds with the right peole.
A girl like you has a name.
Whom I know was Mei Yeen.
What he says are true. Yet I don't understand you. Why? Cause you're one of a kind? Why can I understand so many people yet not you? You make my mind go crazy. So pissed. So irritated. That's what I feel. Yet, I don't know why I still want you as a friend. >.<
I am in Penang, the house is done. Just need renovation and maybe I can even stay here. Wouldn't it be good? A change for everything. But Ashley is soooo gonna kill me. And maybe some other people. I don't know whether how many hearts i had touched, but I hope I had done my best to make the bond. I have lost a very special friend and I do not know the reason why. She was something unique and had really changed my life in so many ways. Yet she simply just walked out of my life and I can never get her back. I don't even KNOW how to get her back. I don't even KNOW how to start a convo with her. Can't even LOOK at her in the eye and say a simple "HI!". She knows that I had walked out of her life too. But she's not planning to return as she knows prefects.. are much more important. I enjoy the peeps in Prefects, cause we have the same attitude. Fun when we can. And serious when we need. Laugh when we want. And crap when it's right. These are the things I have in me. And someone similar to me is Ashley. Her. Sarah. Mich. Chris. Wei Jian. All of us in fact. They had touched my life in soo many ways. And one by one they are leaving. I may never touched their lives. But we had bonded. Thats the way that makes my life so wonderful.
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