Disappointment

There's something wrong with my blog. Can't put any pics. So today will just be words. Sorry. Well, it's true that i'm under a lot of stress. You guys are not doing anything, and everything has been pushed to me. I ain't your maid you know. You suggested it then you do it. Why last minute ask me handle every single piece of it? You think I got so much time to figure every single piece of it by Wednesday? Please. Shut up and leave me alone. I wanted to cry during PJK. Tears were forming in my eyes. Cause you guys are not even considerate. I made the wrong decision to trust you. You guys took 3 weeks to finish up a drawing. And last minute, YOU pass me everything! With extra work. I got badminton team to organize, prefect duty to do, homework to pass up and my own life to pursue. I had the wrong impression on you. All of you in fact! Not considerate at all! I know dancers dont need to help, but do you think I can handle 2 stalls at one time? I got other things to do also. And yes, I dont need these type of friends! You planned everything during the first week of school, and next week Friday is the event and you guys are backing out. Please. I'm tired. I'm not the monitor anymore. Yet, why is the pressure building unto me? Why can't you ask her to do?! She as a Asst. Monitor should be responsible for the stall! Not me. And yet, you guys try to find an excuse! Yes, Mdm.Mano did say DANCERS do not need to participate. What's so great about your dance anyway? It is after the hall event. Which you guys are so free! I got duty the whole day. Sometimes I do not know whether you guys are true friends or not. Disappointment building inside of me. Cause i hate people who breaks promises. I help you guys every time and what I get in return..... is turning away from responsibility. Gloria, before i chop your head off, you better shut the hell up and do what i say. Backing out is pissing me off and don't you dare see my other side of me. I regret asking you for help.



Dear, I know you care for me. I do know that you have seen me in a worst state before. I promise I wont fall sick. I have you to take care of me remember? So all i wanna say is I love you.

Friends

I really really miss them! Being a prefect is nice but losing my friends is not nice. I feel so detached from them. It's like I do not know them anymore... Except Yvonne and Shin... And of course Emmanuel.. He makes me laugh so much. He accompany mr during Maths, talk to me after school and stuff. But the rest of the girls... Without all your laughter and smiles, I feel empty. I'm so much closer with the prefects but I need you guys.. It just hurts.. How can I be closer with the guys and not you? Maybe you guys have dance practices.. But still..
I miss you guys.. Chloe, Ems, Minn, Ching... Sorry for ditching you guys!!!! =(

I didn't know my own strength

Lost touch with my soul;
I had no where to turn
I had no where to go
Lost sight of my dream;
Thought it would be the end of me,
I thought I'd never make it through
I had no hope to hold on to,
I thought I would break

I didn't know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled,
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I did not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

Found hope in my heart,
I found the light to life

My way out of the dark

Found all that I need
Here inside of me,
I thought I'd never find my way

I thought I'd never lift that weight
I thought I would break

I didn't know my own strength

And I crushed down, and I tumble
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn't know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold me head up high

I was not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

There were so many times I
Wondered how I'd get thorugh the night I
Thought took all I could take

I didn't know my own strength
And I crushed down, and I tumbled

But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain

I didn't know my own strength

Survived my darkest hour

My faith kept me alive

I picked myself back up

Hold me head up high

I was not built to break

I didn't know my own strength

Money can't buy love

Sis, Mum, Phil, Me, and Sis

Angel

Sis, Mum & Me

Yvonne

Me & Ching

My 2009 2M



The 3 clowns

Hello people:

I really miss these people above.. Since i started probation, i feel so detached from them. They were the one who got my whole life complete and now... I still have them, but I feel so far away from them. And I have to do belly dance. Thanks to Chloe & Emily.. I have to do it. We played netball today. Minn, Yvonne, Me and Elaine. We were so lame. 4 person playing a whle court. Yvonne sat on the floor first, then followed by Elaine... Minn & I can't stop laughing. But the time was short. Gotta change and rush for my duty. See? I'm ditching my buddies. They were upset too. Cause they miss my laughter... Anyway, I'm Wye Jian's junior. And I LOVE him. He doesn't care what i do. So i'm so free during duty. Next week senior is Garfield ( Chris ) which I'm so deaD.. He's so gonna torture me man.. XD.. Love you guys ya.. Thanks for welcoming me into prefect like one big family. But we got scolded by codi.. For not interacting with seniors.. But I do interact with mine. Cause they are really funny and nice to talk to.

Byess.. ;)

Finally

Things happened. Maybe situation changes. But i hope everything will be as fine. It's not really a good memory to think of so i would rather ignore it. Edward has finally given up on me. I'm very glad of that. I wont post much. Take care guys.

The Last

Hello donkey; dear; and readers
Today will be the last day i online and blog. Unless it's a holiday. So i guess you guys can permanently ignore my blog till I update once more. School is starting tomorrow. Everyone excited? I am though. I can catch people and booked them and fined them. I am evil but I usually close a blind eye. Otherwise the students will hate you. If I don't catch, school captain sure scold during meeting. That's the bad thing being a school prefect.

Okay. So the bad thing is, my dear injured himself during training. And he lost to Guan Yu which I think he was quite upset about. But i know he enjoyed himself. Hitting out and not crossing the net is common mistake so don't fuss over it kay, dear? I make those mistakes too. And don't you dare move around like a squirrel. With your injury, it may be a serious injury and take it seriously otherwise..... Anything can happen.

Okay. I guess that's all for today and for a long time..
P.S: Dear, Cath, update your blog more often. So when i come back on, I can read everything you guys post. I love you. Good bye guys!

BBQ Party

Hello once again;
I know it's very early now. 9.53 a.m and I'm blogging. I'm bored. Okay. So I went for the BBQ last night. It was awesome but I was totally bored cause I do not know a single guy there. I'm serious. So I asked XH to give me something to do. And I did a lot of work. I buttered the sausages, cut the bread into half, brought the dirty plates, gave extra food to the boys to BBQ it. So I had a lot of fun. And the best thing was I fed the dog! Fried chicken. That was the time where XH told me his most deepest secret while feeding the dog. And a lot of other shocking news. And I made 3 new friends. All 18. All guys. The girls were super anti-social. So leave them out of the picture. The 3 guys were: Nicholas, Vince & Eugene. They were super funny kay. I mean they know I don't know anyone so they sticked to me. As we're on the same table. So we chit-chatted, while I see XH enjoying himself but he is really a bad host. Haha. So i end up talking to the maid a lot as I was in and out of the kitchen so frequently. Then it was Marshmallow time! The guys wanted to roast it instead they burnt it. It was funny. Then I went to the fishing area, and Nicholas came and talked to me. He's really quiet but a nice companion. So we talked and he told me he reads this guy's magazine. And he told me some mind-reading thing which he failed badly. =) He's an awesome guy. Then Vince, he was saying that I will be a good housewife. Stink him. And Eugene, he ate so much. And he went so red cause they were drinking wine. I drank too. It was good. But I didn't eat anything there. Then it started to rain. The girls totally disappeared. So XH and me cleaned up all the trash. While Nicholas, my supervisor, supervise me. But he helped a lot. Very proud of him. Halfway, he went and read the Chinese newspaper. So XH and i drank tea as he was erm, unconscious. Then he dragged me into the room. Then the boys poured in. I was the only girl there. There are 2 groups. The anti-social vs the politicians. And I was the politicians. But there was this guy, just right there, when i said "I practically don't know a single person here", his replied was "Hello". Right. And I do not know his name. Except, "Can pass me a plate? " "Can pass me a corn?" So that's it I guess. Byes.. =)

2010

Hello;
Today is a new day in a new year. And at 1 a.m, Emmanuel smsed me asking me to do his homework. I haven't finished mine too. But I promised to finish his Science homework. And I hate English homework. Assignment: Photostat any article from Reader's Digest and compose a composition like the original one without copying. Wah. Please lor. I rather want to do a composition with a specific topic. Easier and faster. Plus, it's holiday homework. Teacher also won't collect. But this year...... Will be late for class in the morning cause got post mortem, leave class early cause got duty, have to do a lot of extra work and if fail any subjects, will get fired. Stress, stress & more stress. PMR some more.. But luckily got dear. But he has his own problems too, and yes, i know you'll help me no-matter what, but you have your own personal problems to settle. Furthermore, if you want to hear me brag, you wont sleep from night to dawn. Hehe. I can really complain. But it's life that we all have to go through. Tonight, i will be having a BBQ dinner with Xin Huang and his friends. Which I don't know them. So he promised to accompany me. And I'm not planning to eat cause my mum will save dinner for me when i get back. Xin Huang will be driving me. Scared. But freedom right? Dear, don't be jealous o.. I'll still be thinking of you. And I know you slept late last night, so maybe I wont make you stay up late as so many other days that I have did. And on Sunday, it will be my last post. School start de, no more Internet. Unless, once a week. Please do come to our school annual concert. RM50- normal sitting. RM100- VIP. Freaking exp right? But it's like Broadway.. Depends what title. Okay. Yes. I can finally meet my friends again. I didn't even hang out with my friends this holiday. Minn was on holiday for 3 weeks. Angel went off to USA then camp. Ching went to China i think. Ems went off to Vietnam. Chloe went off to Pahang. And me, I went to Penang & Singapore. So everyone didn't have time to hang out. At least i received Christmas gift. And i bet Yvonne and Shin will be at home finishing homework. Nerds. Emmanuel, church camp and lazing around. Jayson went back to Penang for a whole month so our band can't get together. Nelson never answers his phone. Kenny will be working. Zach don't know whether he's gonna agree, but if use his song, sure confirm. Cath.... As usual, with Alex. And me, badminton. Hehe. Okay. Gratz to my dear, as he joined the elite squad this year. So train harder, and don't feel stress. Your schedule may be very full but I know you can do it just fine. Take things slowly kay? You already know my timing so I will sure talk to you. Except at night, I will off my phone. But you can complain to me on Sats right? =) And don't be stress over you-know-who. Or pissed. And don't gossip bout me.. Eventhough it good stuff. Haha. Love ya. Bye's!