Moments of Smiles

Hey;
There is nothing much to post today.. I'm so emo today.. Cause MSSKL is tomorrow... And I'm extremely scared... I love you.

Falling In & Out Of Love

Hey people;

I am back. After so many sad days. And sad decisions. But well, for khai's strong and demanding decisions, we are still strong. He is demanding. Sometimes, I just give up arguing with him. But at the end, he came up with an idea. I hope it works. Otherwise busted.

A speaker came to my school on Friday. And he is a lawyer in Klang. Everything he says makes sense. He is a criminal lawyer. And he told us so much about law and his cases. How teenage girls get pregnant and how people get murdered and got sentenced to jail for something they never did. And I remembered he said that, " There is no real love in high school. They are no such thing as true love. Keep everything as a friend. What for go fall in love so early? Love is just a feeling. Ever heard of falling in and out of love? " He said a lot of things that is too much to be written down here. He just said be a good person. And you'll end up in a happy life. And that was what made me think that... well, it's true.

The feelings was gone... Somehow. I don't know why. But after seeing that old rat, feelings came back. So training was good. And khai, I may not go next week. Girls got friendly match with the Singporeans.... Haha.. Will confirm when YC tells me kay?

Is this the moment where I look in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry,
And everything it will surely change
Even if I tell you I won't go away today.

Will you think you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head,
I'm permanent.

I know he is living in hell very single day,
And so I ask, oh God is there some where to take his place?
And when they say it's touch and go
I wish I could make it go away but still you say

Will you think that you're all alone,
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent, I'm permanent

I this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry.

This song really touched my heart.....
I love you.

Sorry.............

I'm sorry for everything I have ever done....
I'm really sorry.... Decisions are made..... And we got to face reality.....

The Ring That Holds Forbidden Love

Hey people;
I got the ring that khai got for me. And it fits perfectly. But.... I'm wearing it as a necklace.. =)
It has * violets are blue * on the ring...
But the not nice incident happened was that daddy caught us.....
*Busted*
Well, got some questions asked and stuff.... But still with khai la..
I thought of something de... But when I look at khai, nothing de lu...
So we're still as strong and still in love. And really missing each other...
So whatever happens today, will always stay. But I know I got him by my side...
Wanted to say to his daddy "hi" de... But *shakes head*....

Whether it shines or it rains,
Please bear in mind that I'm there,
Through tears or laughter,
Please know that I care,
As I've dedicated my love,
To no one else but you,
There's nothing else I would ever want or ask,
As I've got you.
I love you.

Tears That Just Fall

Hey people;
Tears fell today. More hurtful things were said. And I admit my wrong doings last time. And you're so naive to forgive me. Sometimes Why do I need such soft and naive guy to love me? I cried like a lot and the worst thing was... On the phone with Khai.. I could not forgive myself, yet he said things that made me realise how true his words are and how strong he wants us to be. So I wiped away my tears and smile. And I even tricked baby to chase me again. Oh, I had fun. But at least I know we are very strong. Well, he was very cold to me. Stalking me through MSN and FB. But who cares... Let him stalk. And my sis say baby is quite good looking. Haha. Yes, He's handsome when he smiles! But I have never seen him smile in any photo. Gonna train him for that. It's raining. Bye...

And I will wear your ring on my neck. =) I love you.

Take A Leap From The Peak

Hey.
Not much to post this few days. Something "unmemorable" happened and well, it is forgotten. My baby had done me proud by winning some matches without my constant staring. So well done to you, khai. Everyone wins and everyone loses. He feels satisfied with his game at least. That's what important to me. Went out today. Bought some piano books. The main song I wanna learn is Moonlight Sonata. Such a beautiful piece. But it takes time. One good news. Baby no need go Japan! So I can see him on his birthday. Not bad right? Cause someone close to mum not going. Something that really made me realize how strong my love for khai was when he re-appeared in my life. Everyone re-appears in my life, but he gave me such a big impact that i slipped some wrong words yesterday. Eventhough I had admitted my mistakes, I could never forget those sharp and painful words. He was one of the guys who really had touched my life and my friends. All those happy moments of my life. Yet, I made a decision to leave him. I broke his heart so many times, leaving both of us in tears. Yet, we got over each other quite fast. But he re-appeared and.... Just made me emo and pissed. Why? Why him- again- all over again? He... of so many guys.... Had made me turn cold to him. And he gave me his coldness too. He will always remain as my friend and I will always love him as a friend. Yet, he doesn't understand me. He never did. I'm disappointed in him...

Sorry khai, to make you read all these. I love you.

Affection & Hugs & Promises

Hey people;
Yesterday I celebrated my birthday. With school friends and my laogong. It was actually a memorable day. Cause I really had fun with him. It was a day full of coincidence. My dad wasn't feeling well so my driver dropped us off. Then I got to meet mummy which I was not really happy to do it. But it's still laogong's mum right? Cath likes her. Eww. She has bad eye-sight. No offence. But that's not her real character. After finishing putting up a fake smile, we left for movies. Okay. My bad. I made all of us ( Cath, Alex, me, laogong ) walk i think 2 times to the cinema.. Haha. But it was fun right? Not really. Just got some nice time with laogong. And that crazy sakai Cath, simply go scare me by telling me laogong's mum is there. That really scared both of us. So not funny. So we watched Alice in Wonderland. Not a bad movie though. I was in laogong's arm until my neck hurts. Lucky he massaged me back. Otherwise I will be in serious pain. But it's nice to be with him through out the movie. But as usual, while watching the movie, he has these questions in his head. Whether I am happy with him, "xin fu" or not and stuff like that. Well, What I can say from the past 3 months I have been with him, I am grateful to be with you. Eventhough I had not fully seen his whole character, ( I would rather not ), he's still a wonderful guy. And I got to see his annoyed temper yesterday. Quite hilarious, but erm, scary. She was quite annoying too. Oh yes, lunch was not a really happy meal. =)
Nich came around 4. Movie ended around 3 something. So we just walked aimlessly. Cath got a tummyache.. haha.. Alex was mushy over her. During that time, laogong and I just chat normal topics. School life and stuff. And Alex made us sit facing a bikini shop. =.=
What a bro I have. But the whole time, I was in Yk's arms. Otherwise we'll be holding hands. Which we seldom do la.. So we'll be hugging the entire time.
So we met up with the rest of our friends at the ice-skating ring. Got like so many presents from them. Nice ones too. Then we went to Shogun for the buffet. I paid more than 1K.. But well, once in a blue moon. But even in the buffet, we are tangle in each other arms. And I feed laogong. Wee! So fun.. I took some hot stuff which was not hot at all. My laogong did not believe it was not spicy, but he ate it anyway. And he said it was sweet. See? Trust your laopo man. Wont make you suffer one. =)
Cath and Alex eyes saw something they shouldn't which was they saw me and laogong kissed. And they were teasing me till they left my house. I could have chased them out with a broom. Haha. They are a nice couple to go out with though. Except one day don't argue, they won't survive. Haha. The total opposite of me and my dear. But I really hoped the food suites all of my friends. They did ate a lot.
And I think my dad suspected I am dating with laogong. But who cares. If he wanna know, let him know. I will still stay with my laogong no matter what. And my mum saw my wallpaper. Me & laogong. She laughed though. Means agreed i guess.

Today I went to National Library. OMG. That's the worst place I had ever been to. Full of M people. I ain't racists. But they are like totally ignore people who are not C. They just put out their palm at you. And yes, they flirt with those M high school girls. *pukes* I made myself go there to finish up the school sej project. Otherwise i will rank that place a total zero deserted place. The books they have are totally nonsensical. Nothing about world, and world history. Just M and M and M books. My group was the 3C gang group. There's this convo that took place.

Zach: Edward, she has a bf you know.
Edward: Oh really?
Zach: Just warning you, Edward. She has a lover.

Good Luck for tomorrow's tournament laogong! Make me proud. Hehe. And you better miss me. Enjoy the game. You are a good player. =)

I love you. Muax.